howzit people im at my sisters house which is really really boring and there isnt that much to do plus i wont be able to see Joel at all cuz he is busy with his studies and i feel like i am being very annoying to him even tho he tells me im not so my plan is not to annoy him so i wont text him tomorrow to try and see if i can controll my self i have a feeling i will fail at this but hopefully i wont its not like i dont want to speak to him, cuz i really really want to but i dont want to get in the way of his studies. He told me that he was going to give me a book for our three months but he wont tell me what kind of book it is which is making me annoyed i really want to know what it is, all he told me is that his parents made it for him which reminds me i forgot to ask his parents about that and i had two days in his room to look for this book but i forgot all about it until today when he said he hopes i like it, i was like T^T shit i forgot about that lol so maybe next time when ever i can go over again i will have to put like a reminder on my phone so i dont forget to ask his mom. When i was over there his mom showed me his baby photos and he looks just like his mom when she was a baby =] so cute little Joel lol ^_^ and his dad was sharing some funny stories of what Joel did when he was little =P i laughed so much lol. I also went to the shops yesterday and bought him a shirt and a book i wanted to get him something else but i dont want him to know so im not going to write it on here cuz i know he will read this one day and it will ruin the surprise =D. I really felt like writing my story but im having a hard time coming up with some ideas =[ this makes me sad, maybe when i finish tafe i will be able to concentrate on it but i also have to find a job, yes yes i still dont have a job its really hard you know ive gone and put in my resume in lots of places and still no one has called me so gay. So when i get my cert III i will be able to get a job hopefully not too far away cuz i have to catch a bus to get there. Been looking in the newspaper but all they want is group leaders and you can only be an assistant with a cert III =[ that made me sad as well. My friend went and put our pics of wet n wild up on face book lol i look so bad all wet with no make up on at all =P, sigh even tho i have been writing about all of this i still had Joel on my mind, he wont get out of my head!!!! lol its not a bad thing but it wears me down cuz i know i cant see him and talk to him =[. YAY its raining right now wooohooo lol so cool i love the rain so much i love walking in it too, i really hate the heat -__- im more of a winter person so is Joel which is really good we have lots in common and i love him more than anything in this world and i would rather die than live with out him. I know that sounds stupid but thats how i feel about him and lots of other things but i think i have written alot already and its close to my bedtime cuz i have Tafe tomorrow sigh really dont want to go cuz i have to walk in the stupid heat T^T oh well write here some other time
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